the essay : beginnings …

26/07/2021 /

The Essay : b e g i n n i n g s . . .

. . . uncovering ME . . .
. . . beginnings . . .

The Essay : beginnings …

Every morning when I open my eyes for one blissful moment I feel nothing …

I feel no pain …

I feel no sadness …

I feel no concerns …

I feel absolutely nothing and it is blissful.

I only wish it could stay that way …

Yet, it doesn’t … it doesn’t last anywhere near long enough as I come into consciousness and the sensations meander more fully into my consciousness and they begin to overtake me.

It is then I feel pain … in my eyes, behind my eyes, in my head, on top of my head, my face, my jaw, my upper back, arms fingers, feet and toes … sometimes all over my whole body … there isn’t a place that doesn’t hurt …

oh no …

This is how I wake every single day.

… the end …

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fragmented.ME xXx

fragmented_ME

My birth name is Denise, but I’m know as Bella to those who love me. I have a first class honours degree in education & psychology and a strong passion to keep learning and educating others ... I have severe ME/CFS and lots of other chronic illnesses and I started this blog as an expansion to my instagram page, where I advocate for chronic illness. I am married and have two grown up boys, or should I say young men. I have three gorgeous grandchildren, one boy and two girls. And despite being chronically sick and housebound I am mostly happy. 🥰